I’m hiding in the tub. When I hit that overwhelm I like to retreat to warm water. I want to do more today than I have the time or energy to complete. Shutting down feels easier than moving left, right or forward, so I am taking a bath to try to prevent an emotional spiral. To let my next step pick itself.
Many a Sunday I have return to the lyrics Kris Kristofferson wrote: On the Sunday morning sidewalk/ Wishing, Lord, that I was stoned/’Cause there’s something in a Sunday/Makes a body feel alone/There ain’t nothin’ short of dyin’/Half as lonesome as the sound/ On the sleepin’ city sidewalks/ Sunday mornin’ comin’ down
While I not extremely hungover and filled with regret like the narrator, I feel the lonesomeness of a Sunday. Durning the work week I hang on for the weekend. Saturday holds the promise of freedom, the great outdoors with the wind in my hair. Sunday is the reality of food prep, chores that make my work week flow easier and time to catch up whatever I have piled up for when I have time.
So much of life seems to be managing the rub between work and self as there is rarely a balance. I’m tired. I just want to be able to afford to retire to be a stay at home dog & horse mom while I am physically and mentally able to do so.
Soon I’ll get out of the tub, dry off and continue on with my day. I don’t have the answers. Baths are not the solutions to all problems. Somethings may never be resolved.
The Yoga Cowgirl 
“So much of life seems to be managing the rub between work and self as there is rarely a balance.” – Yes! And doing one thing at a time. Good luck on this Sunday!
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Thank you. You too!
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I’m feeling exactly the same way today.
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Hang in there.
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Thanks!
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Feeling you on this one, Sarah. You worded this well. Work swallows up people’s energy and eats into their personal life. Has it been a while since you took some time off?
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I took off two weeks to move to another state and start a new job. I went from 25 days off a year to 10. I hate it. I had to use two precious hours a couple of weeks ago to take my dogs to the vet. I can’t make up time, but days that I work an extra hour for an event are “part of the job.” What I have it it until The end of June. It is use or lose as well.
I hate that….the feudal system…
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That’s lame. I hope that soon everything slows down for you.
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That song used to accompany me on Sunday morning wanderings in Denver when I was a paralegal. It said everything.
I loved my job; I never imagined retiring, but when the moment came, there was no question. I had no idea how much adjustment retirement would demand. A lot more than I thought and it’s somewhat financially sketchy. That said, I really never want to teach anyone anything ever again. 😀
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I am in what I hope is my last job. I’m hoping I can retire in 3 years, but I would be open to keeping my job as a contractor with benefits. We’ll see.
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When I was younger I used to say Sunday was “truth day”. It was the day that I did not have classes at university and no other appointments so Sunday was the day I would find out the truth about myself. No distractions . I had to face myself.
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BINGO
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❤️
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Tine in the tub is so scacred to me and the idea of Sundays the best butr I gotta say they can have a lot of regrouping time. Thanks for you words. sorry as my computer is glitching and not sure what my first line says.. i can’t see it. Yikes.
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Dang computer, but I totally get you. May the computer needs to regroup in the bath.
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lol 🤣
that’s my biggest fear Sarah.. that I drop in there when I’m working.. 😆
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I take my iPad! Maybe I should get it a floaty!
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There’s something about Sundays that I enjoy – it used to be family day and now it’s “me” day. Soaking in tub is a good way to unwind and leave the stress of the days gone by. 💚 May it turns around for u
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