Free from all old stories I've been told
I walk through the valley of my own shadow
Gajumaru performed by Yaima
Most weekdays I listen to inspirational music as I get ready for work. Last week I was listening to a friend’s playlist when these words grabbed me. I have listened to this song every day this since. The chorus struck a cord deep within me.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
I am not a theologian nor a biblical scholar, but I see how my mind creates my valley of shadow. My mind thinks it can control outcomes. My mind has expectations of how things should be and it blames human me when all is not perfect. My mind battles my connection to God.
The valley of the shadow of death is within me. It is made up of stories I have told myself: I messed up, I am not valuable, I am unloveable, I am too loud/big/aggressive/etc., yet I can have all the answers and control others!
The valley is fear.
I don’t have the answers, but I am on a journey through my valley where light is penetrating deep shadows. I am not alone.
My ego hates that.