Valley of Shadows

Free from all old stories I've been told
I walk through the valley of my own shadow

Gajumaru
performed by Yaima

Most weekdays I listen to inspirational music as I get ready for work. Last week I was listening to a friend’s playlist when these words grabbed me. I have listened to this song every day this since. The chorus struck a cord deep within me.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Psalm 23:4

I am not a theologian nor a biblical scholar, but I see how my mind creates my valley of shadow. My mind thinks it can control outcomes. My mind has expectations of how things should be and it blames human me when all is not perfect. My mind battles my connection to God.

The valley of the shadow of death is within me. It is made up of stories I have told myself: I messed up, I am not valuable, I am unloveable, I am too loud/big/aggressive/etc., yet I can have all the answers and control others!

The valley is fear.

I don’t have the answers, but I am on a journey through my valley where light is penetrating deep shadows. I am not alone.

My ego hates that.

26 thoughts on “Valley of Shadows

  1. Debbie says:

    I’ve heard it said that we talk to ourselves perhaps more than we talk to anybody else. I guess that’s why it’s so very important to speak kindly and respectfully to ourselves. Thanks for the reminder, Sarah.

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  2. Kathy says:

    My mind tells many of these same stories. I used to really truly believe some of these fearful tales, and sometimes still do. Lately, though, it’s possible to see more often that they’re just stories and most of them aren’t true.

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      • Kathy says:

        Gosh, we can only HOPE so! I have been doing/living the work almost 35 years now. Sometimes it’s as clear as a blue cloudless skies and sometimes I’m still terribly lost and hurting as ego’s fear and attachments play out. All those years ago I thought this was MY FAULT and if I just acted from love everything would be OK. Now it’s sometimes possible to love the one who still moves from fear, poor sweet hurting darling.

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  3. ZeroSpace says:

    Well as you know I find your blog a continual inspiration. Really, you’re quite strong – you deal with things on your own in a direct fashion.
    Versus people I’ve seen who do a lot of whining, bless their hearts, or sort of latch onto others in a way that drains other people.
    The other side of the fence, however, for strong people seems to be… difficulty in knowing when they *do* need to lean on others. So I do hope you have supports when things get really gnarley now and then.

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