The Sunday before Labor Day Weekend, I did an meditation with my on-line community. We started with box breathing*, then listened to the manta I have shared, and then meditated for five minutes on the question, what is mine to create.
What immediately came to me was the word space. I next spent the rest of the meditation floating in a black hole. It was not scary, I just knew I was floating in space even though I could not see the light of the stars. After the meditation many of the women in the community shared the messages of action or images of beauty that came to them. I stayed mum as I had no idea what my simple message of space meant.
Over the past week I have pondered this and I have repeated a variation of the meditation several times seeking clarity on the space that is mine to create.
I realized that my yoga/movement practices gave me space from my worries and fears while keeping me grounded. Walk breaks gave me space from my office and work issues. Time with friends gave me space from all of the above.
Labor Day Weekend Sunday was a rainy day. I felt a rare urge to attend to some of the piles is stuff and laundry that have piled up, literally I was making space. I listened to podcasts while I worked. One of the podcasts was on the importance of allowing feeling to flow and be released. When feelings get stuck they become a story which keeps one stuck in a pattern which restricts space.
The more space I gave myself, the more I started to see how space expands beyond me to what I share with others to give them space whether it is food they do not have to prepare while recovering from illness, a yoga practice or giving a loved one space to make their own decisions even if I do not like their choice. Yes, giving up the story or illusion of having control over another is creating space.
The notion of being the change I want to be in the world is overwhelming. But asking Spirit, “What is mine to create? What is my next right step?”, is a start. I will keep sharing physical and meditation practices to help others find space. Some may land with with others and some may not, but I am trusting my next steps.
*Box Breathing: In hale through your nose to a slow count of four, hold for a slow count of four, exhale through your mouth to a slow count of four, hold the air out for a slow count of four. Do four round to complete the box.