I bet that for the last week, month, two months, six months, year, or year a half everyone one of us would describe a period of time as a struggle. Life is hard right now. It is especially easy to focus on fear, strife and decisiveness and not on the fleeting joys of daily life.
I was sharing my frustrations and fears with my girl Tina when magic words rolled off of her tongue, “I’m not sure I trust you, but I am willing to try.”
Part of my struggle has that I am taking the world personally; acting as if I have any control. I’ve been taking a very narrow, human view that everything is either for me or against me. What is grabbing the headlines has nothing to do with me other than how I react, interpret or internalize the information. I have been internalizing fear and frustration.
In my struggle I was forgetting that I am not alone, that I have a Higher Power. My humanness is a one woman show that is skeptical about trusting most other humans. Surrendering to God is trust.
Tina’s words opened my eyes. I may not have complete trust in the Divine, but I am willing to try. That is a liberating step. That step lightens loads. I am willing to try trusting.
Tina also delivered a second step, “I am willing to step to a higher plane, but I don’t know how. God, please show me.”
Willingness seems to be the key, the shift. Willingness is my first step forward. As my teacher often says, “Take one step towards Spirit and Spirit will take ten steps towards you.”