I just deleted another email from a well meaning soul offering a workshop to help me find my purpose. I smiled as I hit delete. I once would have considered this workshop. I remember wishing someone would just TELL ME my purpose. I thought it would make things so much easier. Now I’m glad I was not given an easy, arbitrary answer.
When my office closed in early March and I was sent to work from home for three months, I set ground rules and goals for myself. I wanted to use my time constructively because couch surfing, eating junk food, dinking and binging TV or anything else would wreck my health, both mental and physical. Little did I know that I was setting myself up for the greatest spiritual growth I have ever experienced.
I am in a spiritual community that really stepped up starting in March. Working from home and having no social life gave me time to read, journal, exercise, meditate and create. Slowing down and consolidating allowed me to zero in on who and what was most important to me and what I wanted the other side of COVID to look like. I began to think a lot about the Divine and purpose.
“I think it pisses God off if you walk by the color purple in a field somewhere and don’t notice it.” The Color Purple
I started small by considering what if my only purpose was to enjoy life, to notice the beauty around me and to be grateful. Alice Walker inspired me to notice and share photos of the purple flowers I came across all spring and summer.
As I practiced yoga I began praying, “May your wish for me come to fruition.” I began to feel myself shifting, relaxing, and staying present.
Following the urges I had to create through writing, photography, a glue book journal and paints lead me to more A-Ha moments. A dear friend who is also on her own spiritual quest shared her thoughts, “Creativity connects us to the Creator which creates alignment.”
One day while driving in the sunshine I suddenly realized that my purpose is for me to be me. My purpose is to embrace my personality, the essence of who I am, and my strengths and weaknesses. I am a spiritual being having a human experience. I believe that when I am aligned with and following the nudges from the Divine I am fulfilling purpose.
I probably will not be the one to find the cure for cancer, but each day I can stayed grounded and aligned to fulfill my purpose. While I do think and wonder about the grand, sweeping, CinemaScope view of my life, I take it day by day. Today my purpose may to to be kind or to create a yoga flow that helps a student or to call a loved one to remind him/her that he/she is loved. It all adds up.
What if my/your/our only purpose is just to notice beauty, to be kind, to love, to laugh and to have fun?